Unrevealed Love

Let's call her 'A'. All these while, 'A' doesn't even give a damn about boys and couple thingy. For her, she is not old enough to have such a feeling towards any man. Some more, she had seen some women that she loved being hurt sooo bad by men. Thus, she's preparing herself not to be hurt by avoiding being too close with any man (men is also acceptable). She's cold-hearted towards her boyfriends (boyfriends here refers to kawan lelaki) but within the group of girlfriends, she's so nice, pleasant and cheerful. The story begin when one day, a guy start greet her in a social network. She doesn't realize when the guy sending her a friend request, and when she approve him as friend. Overall, she has no idea when they becoming friend virtually. Ok let's call the guy as B. At first, she feels like 'ah malas la nak layan'. But after having a few and more chat together, she feels that they have the chemistry as B is an easy-going person . From that point, they're becoming good friend virtually. Everyday B will texts her and everyday she is waiting for B to texts her. They share opinions, thoughts and interests together. And sometimes B will kindly help her doing her assignments. She starts to like things that B like, same goes to B. The most obvious one is when she start to watch EPL. How great the influence that B brings into her life. She changed a lil bit but not much especially the way she treat her boyfriends (kawan lelaki). She starts to break the ice with her boyfriends (kawan lelaki) and sometimes they can even joke around and laugh together. And maybe, the way she thought about men is also changed slightly. Thanks to B. Although she is hardly deny her feeling towards B, but people around her knows that she's in love. The way she smile, the bright of her eyes tell everything. To confess her feeling towards B, it's a never. She's an ego-maniac. It's not her way to approach man. All these while, she never put an effort to start a conversation to B. All she know is to keep waiting for B to start first. She's happy to be around B because he is understanding, protective, know the batas pergaulan, and always protect her as a muslimah. Suddenly, she hear her heart say, "This is it. This is the man that you are looking for." Yes, B is like almost perfect to her. She desperately likes every single thing about B. She is emotionally in love with B. She even thought to spend her lifetime with B even though she is not very sure how B feels towards her. But she knows B feels the same way as her by looking at how nice B treat her.  Neither B nor 'A' has confess the feeling toward each other. The silent love, she kept it at the very safest place in her heart. Nobody knows as long as her heart keep it as a secret. But surely, life is not always beautiful, the sky does not always clear. When the sun is just about to bright, the dark clouds appear. All of sudden, B is lost without trace. At first, she try to bersangka baik, maybe B is busy working on his student life. She try to be understanding as B always do. But the silence, being understanding-like-B is actually kills her inside. She really wants to contact B by any means, but her ego keeps telling her not to. She desperately want to know how B's doing but her ego always stop her intention. At last, she has no other things to do except to cry. For the first time, she cries for a guy. She painfully cries in front of her girlfriends as she needs them to lend her their shoulders. She cries because the relationship that she expected to go further, end up this way. She cries because when she about to trust a person, the person break her trust. She cries because she's unable to get angry and hate B. She accept B for whoever he is, she never ask B to change even a bit although B is not categorized under her 'Mr. Right types'. She loves B for no reason. She cries because the pain she feels inside is killing her. The moment she stop cries is the moment she feels that Allah is around. Allah is watching her cries all night long and only Allah know how painful she feels. She's trying to get close to Allah especially during 1/3 night. Yes, only Allah know her better and can heal her inner pain. She seek Allah almost every night, tells everything she wanted to. If B is meant for her, bring his heart close to her and guide them toward right path. If it is vice versa, thus make her strong enough to accept the fate and guide her to the right path. Slowly, she 's letting B go. She always pray that wherever B is, he is blissful and be blessed by Allah. No pain inside, she is totally healed. She is trying her best to be a better muslimah and keep her distance close to Allah. She knows that Allah has plan a wonderful love story for her, and the time will come InshaAllah. Allah loves her and protecting her from being hurt again. Thank you Allah, for giving her a chance to feel the love towards You.




Everything happened for a reason. Have trust to Allah. For every bad things happened, I always believe that there is something much better awaits me..


"...But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not."  [Surah Al-Baqarah, 2:216]




I have read this quote on somewhere but can't remember where. It touched me so much. To the owner of this quote, thanks for making me realize that I am not the owner of the pen.. :)


"Suddenly I somehow know that my life did not need to be this way and Allah had something better for me. I felt Him gently whisper these words to my soul: You continue to get your heart broken because you are holding the pen of your life and trying to write your own story. I am the Author of love, I am the Creator of romance. I know your heart's every desire. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must give the pen to me. You must let Me be the center of your existence. You must let Me have total control of your life, and every other area of your life as well..."

From Bangkok With Lotsaluv!

Assalamualaikum :)

Not to say much, just a preview during my trip to Bangkok on mid-sem break. It was totally awesome and joyful to have such memorable moments as this is my last trip with my studiomates (maybe).

Till then, see ya on the next update kalau rajin :D

Get Well Soon Lil Bulb

Assalamualaikum :)

Malas nak update apa2. Tapi sebab rindu gilak2 kat si kenit ni, nak tulis sikit la :D

Time balik kl haritu, dis munchkin baru lepas baik drp demam campak. 2 3 4 hari lepas tu, dia demam balik. Kesian asyik demam je. Budak ni dah biasa hyper, so bila tengok dia lemau rasa tak best aa pulak kan. Nak buli pun tak sampai hati :')

Recent update: Demam dah baik, tapi still batuk2 sikit. Terus hyper balik, jadi minah rempit.kahkah

Mak Ngah rindu awak..get well real soon. Lotsa hugs and kisses!

She's Fine

Ketawa tak semestinya gembira. Menangis tak semestinya sedih.

Damn It's Sunday

Harini Ahad.. Esok ada studio. Ahh benci!

I hate Sunday.

Conteng: Belajar menghargai setiap waktu dan detik for one day you'll realize how fast time flies and how meaningful the past time you had wasted. By then, it's too late to be regretted.

Angel Vs Devil

I Miss My Bangle Watch ;')

Masak-Masak : My 1st Attempt

Assalamualaikum :)

Frankly speaking, aku bukanlah kategori gadis rajin ke dapur. Nak2 kalau suruh masak.. Memang aku pass kat adik aku je. hahaha. Boleh bayangkan tak betapa pemalasnya aku nak jejak kaki ke dapur sampaikan nak hidangkan seteko kopi panas kat tetamu pun aku ambik masa setengah jam. Ye setengah jam beb! Lepas setengah jam aku tak keluar, tetamu tu sendiri yang masuk dapur bancuh air untuk diri sendiri. Ok tipu je. Ni kisah 3 tahun lepas. Masa tu aku reti bancuh air milo je sebab aku penggemar tegar milo. Cerita zaman sekarang, aku bukan saja handal membancuh air, malahan turut handal memasak.wakwakwakwak

Lihat gambar di atas. Ya itu nasi lemak aku buat sendiri tanpa pertolongan sesiapa. *See see kan aku dah cakap aku boleh memasak :D

Why on earth ek kau rajin sangat masak? Selama ni kau bangun2 pagi je breakfast dah siap hidang kan.. Mesti rajin bersebab. Bajet aku tak tahu la tu..

Yes, sebuah kerajinan mesti didatangkan dengan sebuah alasan. *BM fail, yes i know.. :')

Minggu tu ayah ada bowling tournament kat penang lantas beliau mengangkut sekali mama dan dua orang adikku yang masih mentah. Dua orang lagi adikku yang masing2 sudah agak matang, dititipkan kepadaku untuk dijaga. Cewaahh cewaahhhhhh ><

Lantas bertungkus lumuslah aku memasak demi menjaga perut adik-adikku supaya mereka sentiasa kenyang. *marilah kita memperkasakan bahasa ibunda. Ayuh! :D

Ok berbalik kepada nasi lemak. Punyalah berkobar-kobar nak masak, lepas subuh terus bertenggek dekat dapur. Tung tang tung tang tung tang siap! (sila rujuk gambar di atas). Tengok jam baru pukul 8.30 pagi kot. Adik aku lepas subuh terus terbongkang balik. Dengan sopan santunnya aku kejut diorang bangun, suruh makan nasi lemak. (hanya adik2 aku tau bagaimana kesopansantunan aku time kejut diorang bangun.ngehngehngeh) Tak kira diorang kena bangun makan nasi lemak jugak! Appreciate la sikit hoi penat jerih aku bersengkang mata masak nasi lemak ni.. muehehehe...

Tengah hari pulak, we olls masak nasi minyak hujan panas + ayam masak merah + daging masak hitam + acar timun.. Main campak2 and tadaaaa nilah hasilnya :D

Ohh2 yang ni my first attempt fettucine carbonara. Bila masa tah aku buat tengok2 dah ada je dalam album..hehe. Haritu aku pernah la jugak beli instant punya carbonara and the taste is like yucks apa benda ni? Aku masak lagi sedap kot! (cehh perasan). Untuk membuktikan yang aku masak lagi sedap dari carbonara instant tu, aku pun masak. haha. Campak punya campak punya campak..tadaaaaa! (sila rujuk gambar di atas) Berdasarkan responden yang telah mencuba carbonara aku, 5/5 bersetuju bahawa carbonara aku yummies! :D

Conteng: Mama cakap kalau boleh masak dah boleh kahwin. Kan ma kn... ;)

Munchkin I Miss You

A Gift On International Women's Day

Me Heart My Family

Assalamualaikum :)

Haritu kite balik berjimba-jimba time study week, memang berjimba habis, buku haram tak usik.ngehngehngeh... Balik hari jumaat, esoknya ada kenduri kat rumah aunty. Kenduri doa selamat sebab Imran nak fly further study di London tak lama lagi. Ok mari cuci mata tengok gambar-gambar ni..

Ohh dalam lif pun jadi ye ;p

Please jangan malu-malu dong ma :D

This is Baby E. Time kami datang dia sedap tidur bawah kipas. Tak sampai 10 minit dah bangun. Ni mesti aunty2 noti kacau ni..

Baby E and his uncle. Both subjects are too cute to handle :)

Ohh my...garangnye. Tengok uncle dah takut :p

Bergaduh berebut puting..gegege

Ok dah dapat puting baru :D

Baby E and Mak Su

Lembut betul kain baju ni. Tengok sikit brand ape..

Baby E and Mak Ngah. Both subjects are adorable!

*jangan baca kalau rasa loya* ;p

Kite jarang balik rumah so bila sesekali balik tu asyik nak berkepit dengan Baby E je. Semua kite nak buat sorang-sorang. Bak sini nak dukung baby. Bak sini biar baby duduk dengan akak. Bak sini nak suap baby makan. hehehe. But then tengah beronok-ronok bagi budak kenit ni makan, tetiba dia tersedak. Hah mengelabah ayam kau tak tahu nak buat apa, terus pass dekat Ira.haha..

"Apa lah kau ni! Kalau baby tersedak buat lah macam ni. Ish tak boleh kahwin lagi kau ni," Ira mengajar sambil mengusap-usap belakang Baby E, secara tidak langsung cuba mempertikaikan kredibiliti seorang gadis.wuwuwu

Seriously bukannye kite tak tahu kalau baby tersedak kena buat apa. Tapi sebab terkejut, semua benda jadi lupa. Nak2 bila terpaksa cover macho depan mamat cun yang dari tadi dok usha skill kite menjaga anak. Ciss jatuh saham kite. Ok bye handsome ;(

Lepas makan haruslah exercise! kata si baju pink

Gambar-gambar ini diambil ketika kenduri doa selamat. Mana gambar makan? Harap maklum ketika diumumkan oleh tuan rumah untuk acara menjamu selera, kami terus lupa daratan dan membiarkan kamera comelku bergelimpangan lantas berlari-lari anak menuju ke tempat hidangan bufet ;p

Conteng: Harus belajar kursus keibubapaan daripada sekarang.

First Thing First

Mari berconteng-contengan :D